Happy Valentine’s Day in heaven 

Dearest Travis, On your first Valentine’s Day in heaven- it will be 100 days from the last time I saw you.  100 days from when I last heard your voice. It feels as if it has been 100’s of months and years…. You are my greatest love, my one and only love. As our wedding…

I cry

I cry because I love and have loved. I cry because I lost my one and only love  I cry because I feel every little piece of emotion  I cry because I don’t know why he had to go I cry because I am so alone I cry because I miss his touch, his smell,…

Forever is a very long time 

Its been a while since I have written. The days have become a blur. Last week, my counselor described my actions as rather robotic: “You wake up, you go to work, you cook, you clean, you take care of your children, yet you are not truly present, you are like a robot”. I feel numb…

He’s NEVER coming back

As I was driving home today from meeting an attorney- it hit me.  At the intersection of Demers and 34th, it hit me.  He will never be coming home.  He won’t see our children ever again. He won’t see the trees we decorated or the lights that Jacob and I hung on our house yesterday….